12/19/2007

Will things ever be the same?

My daughter Evelyn (Chihuahua) Chang text me today. It came so unexpected and really surprised me. I guess I really felt distant between me and my two daughters ever since I've been back from China. Things just aren't the same any more between us.... To me nothing has changed on my end, but I didn't realize how much distant it has grew between me and my daughters.

I now can feel that they don't trust me as much as they used to anymore....there are now secrets and things that they would not tell me about even if I ask or confront them about. Especially now that they are entering the stage of liking guys and perhaps even being with someone already. They failed to realize the fact that they are still young and these puppy loves are insignificant compared to what God will bring along in the future.

Since when did I became such a bad father? It wasn't like we never taught them about these things....but where did everything starting going wrong? Was it the fact that I left for 4 months?I really wish things could go back to how they were when they're both naive, innocent, and down to earth with no secrets to hide.

I miss the old them.....will things ever be the same?




3 comments:

Jessica Torres said...

Only time will tell.

You are a good father :)

Anonymous said...

I LOVE THEM (AND MISS THEM 2 :() U R A WONDRFUL FATHER!!

Bibi said...

Don't beat yourself up about something that's not under your control... and you've been a wonderful father to them, which is why you're experiencing parental distance as they enter adolescence, you're like a real dad!!